TABARNAC DE GENOU....

That's French... and not a kind word.... my knee let me down... I could only do 4/18 miles planned...

Mile 1 : A breeze, bring it on!
Mile 2: What! My knee's acting funny! (it doesn't hurt but it's on the way... this usually happens at mile 12!!!)
Mile 3: OMG, this freakin' hurts, start crying
Mile 4: This is insane, it hurts so much, I had to give up.... and then more crying

I had to walk back part of it and then I took the bus. I feel like a quitter, a failure... my mental state is not the best. I'm doubting myself, what if my body can't hold on? This is hard, I guess I'll have to take a complete break from running... but I don't want to.... I honestly don't know how to deal with that. I feel like this is my fault, I injured myself on purpose not to run the marathon, but I didn't... wow I'm a mess and depress....

Thanks for reading...