NOT SURE WHAT THE HECK I AM DOING...

This getting out the door to exercice is hard... Since Quebec City half-marathon I am in a coma like state.... I felt really crappy Thursday and Friday, some sort of start of cold and now that it has seem to pass. I just can't motivate myself to go out the door. For the last 3 days I got dressed for a bike ride just to sit on the couch all day... sigh. We'll see what happens today.... but I am not hopeful. Not even the thought of sucking at my next sprint tri is kicking me in the butt.

I don't think I speak of my personal life very often on this blog, as I like to be this always happy person that I know I can be. But for the last week I can't shake this unhapiness. I have now been looking for a job since January and finished my Ph.D. since April and haven't found anything. Niet. Nil. Nothing. The worse is that I have only been called on 1 interview and just receive a negative reply on Wednesday. It is starting to affect the way I see myself, and all the sacrifices I made to finish this damn Ph.D. and then realise I have nothing in front of me??? This is not fair. I just can't understand why this is so hard....

Plus my foot/ankle is totally wack!

NEW ROUTINE

Slowly settling into my new routine, what day of the week are we again?! Yeah, vacation is THAT good! lol Well it would be a little better if the Montreal Canadiens could win a game but since they stopped doing that I might as well cheer for Ken's team....

Last Thursday, I waited 5h at the clinic to see a doctor and resolve my foot issues. After taking X-rays of my foot and learning that there is no stress fracture but just a really bad PF. The doctor, who was a runner, told me my orhtotics were shitt and so hard that my foot had to absorb all the shock instead of the cushioning of the shoe when I run. So yeah, by wearing the orthotics I aggravated my problem (insert French swearing here: @!$%%!@#$). At some point, you just don't know what to do and who to listen to... So, now I'm on a strict short runs regimen from 2 to 5K for 3 weeks and then building up SLOWLY for the next 3 months... 3 months!!! This is already hard... so I bought a stationary bike! And I hate biking but it keeps my cardio up and I'm not going totally insane!! =)

Lastly, I have 2 GREAT news!!

1- I'M going to ARUBA!!!! With my Dad, 1 week on the beach YAY

2- I GOT MY FIRST INTERVIEW FOR A CHEMIST POSITION!!!! In the government just like I want!

I'm pretty excited about both and not sure which one I'm most happy about!! =)